JAY-Z[Part 1]

Ha! My Maan....That's what Denzel Washington would say, i love that phrase.
Jay-Z truly is my man. I'm a BIG fan of Jay and no im not his biggest fan, to any one that says that - its total B.S.; u think u know all his lyrics? Someone else knows his lyrics and movements, u think u know those two too? Someone else out there in this biG, BIG world, knows his lyrics, movements and can imitate his voice too. Its a losing battle...hehe

I had that proved to me at his concert in Dublin early this month, July 2008/or late last month i cant really remember. €72 i didnt really have but it was worth every last cent. Ok i was a lil' bit disappointed that the show didnt go on for 3 hours lol, but we'd all probably have to pay thru the nose for that kinda time with a mega-star.

Waited 5 hours in the rain, took the 9am 4-hour bus from Letterkenny, landed Dublin around 1pm[the show was for 6pm but i wanted to be right UPFRONT! :-) ], searched like crazy for the show venue, found it, was disappointed that i was 2nd in line :-(, these guys had been waiting in the rain long before i got there! Met some other cool Jay fans, the organisers took pity on us an gave us a Portakabin to shield us from the rain. We swapped stories/jokes/awe-stories about Jay & other greats until we got bored, some more waiting in the rain and finally...

JAY-Z [Part 2]

....the organisers tell us they're pushing the concert forward AN HOUR! Gawd, after almost 6hours of mind-numbing boredom and polite chit-chat, i had to wait ANOTHER HOUR?


Anyways the queue is starting to lengthen, but not at all as long as i expected for a Jay-Z concert...I mean, its JAY-Z!! Some show-offs from the press arrive 30 mins to show-time and walk by our queue/security cos they've got press-passes...DAMN THEM! Then i hear some lady yellin down the mic and a band playing. Rehearsals. URGGHHH!! Estelle was opening for Jay
She became my worst enemy then. I keep cussing her out to everyone's chagrin. Just as they're about to let us in, some guy hands out Estelle's album release flyers.. i tell him to "SHOVE IT".

They let us in..."Dont RUN, or u'll be kicked out", they tell us, but people still hot-leg it to get the best view.

Monkey-see, Monkey Do hehe.

Some wack-ass white-boy DJ bores us with his scratches for about 20mins and Estelle comes on.
My my..does she have some stage presence, for some weird reason, Estelle and I kept making eye-contact until she points her finger at me as if to say "You, come up on stage". HA!!

Your boy didnt think twice about it, with the help of a bouncer i got up on stage and we started BUMPING AND GRINDING...NO JOKE!! The crowd went CRAZY!!! Funny enough, i wasnt really shy, i just did my thing and thanked her.

I was now a FAN hehe, i swore to everyone around me that i'd buy her album now, her songs sounded so much sweeter after that(must go get it whennext im downtown), but they just rolled their eyes. 15 more mins and Jay bursts outta nowhere and kills the show[img]http://www.websmileys.com/sm/cool/1237.gif[/img]

I look behind me and the concert hall is filled to capacity. He played some songs i didnt even know...i made sure i watched for the hand signals to his DJ & band he's famous for. I caught almost every single moment. He even pointed at me once trying to get me to look at his drummer's riff in the "Show Me What You Got" song. I'd actually planned and made Jay do that but thats a whole other story. His best buddy came out did their "secret handshake" which is kinda played out for me now...and did two songs. Memphis Bleek had a totally iced-out watch on him...i mean, not one teeny-weensy place on the watch that wasnt encrusted with white diamonds. V. Nice!

I tried alot to stand out from the crowd, e.g. when everyone was throwing up the Roc sign, i'd be the one with my hands down, i was secretly hoping he'd notice me and get me up on stage..so much for that wish. Anyway he rocked the crowd well, did that fake thing saying the show is over then comes back and gives the crowd a lil more then fades off. I still felt a lil robbed. Like i wanted a whole lot more, but hey he a busy dude, plus he probably had to leave for Glastonbury the next day anyway.

Twas an okay concert in all, was a bit disappointed though when i checked youtube and saw some of the stage effects he used in our concert, he'd used the exact same one last year in another concert. E.g. the one with Bono, hyping the crowd, comeon Jay, U are supposed to be the GREATEST! ah well...

For my first concert ever, it was a GREAT experience, THANKS JAY!

Deadly Moody

Moods

This shit has gotten me in sooo much trouble these past few weeks. Feels like I know i'm doing something wrong at the time but i just keep landing myself in trouble. My mood has "helped" me get fired, isolated my mum's best friend and family of over 20 years (tut...i even damage stuff that was there before i was born), pissed my mum off - who's a very forgiving and loving person by the way - and this same mood is probably what made my last girlfriend leave me.

Ah sure, when these "events" happen, in that particular moment, u think u are in the RIGHT, my boss wasn't meant to make me work that late i.e.12am, OR i told her i was gonna go out for awhile, why they all bugging? Mum calls that pride, i guess it is, my head tells me she's right but I just keep on doing it. She says to put it in my prayers bcos if i fear God, i wont disrespect others the way i do on a regular basis and end up chasing every one away from my life.....ahhhh, sometimes to do just that would be bliss!!

U see, im doing it again...whatever, i have put it to God, that He'd help me put it in my consciousness when "events" like before arrive so i'll handle them better and i really do hope i handle them better.

In all, i guess i'm just tired of feeling like im disappointing everybody...I'll be d first to admit u cant please everyone, but the pressure's just too much to smile when you're boiling like crazy inside, from lousy(and that's a kind word for him, u know who u are) senior employees to my parents to their friends and society in general.

Sometimes i feel like Biggie in Ready To Die...i probably shouldnt buy that album and listen to it, else....